Tuesday, December 11, 2012

life is. a performance, never a rehearsal.



2 nights in a row... upset and slept

u thought i am not frantic.
not pressurized.
not stressed.
i am not worried?

how can u not see from my perspective...

should not have made that decision... if i knew u would do this...

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

dinner is served with love... and a soup on your "Favourites" list

tuesday 4 december

i woke up togther with you and 6 plus am
thinking and decided to go marketing. and make some food for your dinner.
as a wife, seeing you work hard at work and i am not working currently.
the least i can do is make the house welcoming.
and fill the table with food that fills your stomach.

it took me half a day to prepare cos i was brewing.
luckily you managed to finish  all the food.
yes, the whole dinner manufactured by me for the first time.
yes, i burnt my hand couple times, leaving scars on the back of my palm, and forearm.
but these scars do not scare me away from cooking for you.
i will continue to manufacture and you will be my QC manager

thank you for cooking for me all the time.
let me pamper you once in a while, as a wife who wants you to relax at home, from work.

melon soup with ribs
pan-fried stingray
stir-fried baby spinach
stir-fried yong tau foo
with rice

yes.
its a blissful feeling to see you eat every mouthful
its a happy moment to see you finish all the food and not feel hungry for the rest of the night.

I will buck-up.





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we quarrelled...and we patched... cos you gave in first.... again

monday 3 dec 2012

we quarrelled.
it was raining. but you did not have an umbrella.
we arranged to meet for dinner at yishun.
but in the end, i delayed and you were pissed.
cos you were wet and drenched and i was late.

but yes, i was pissed too.
i was late because you informed me late
i was late because you needed some help and i sat the void deck alone for approx an hour and helped you fixed.
i was late because i do not want to disappoint you, neither do i want to disappoint my mother, my grandmother and my uncle.
i was late because i was trying to fulfil my role as a wife, a  daughter, granddaughter and a niece.

yes, i was pissed.
i blocked your call and slept in the mrt on my way home.
ignored your phone call. and msg.

when i reached home, you had no dinner.
i did not cook. and you decided not to eat much for dinner.
no delivery, no coffeeshop food.

in the end, you heat up the chicken pau and asked me to share with you.

i am sorry.
always being late for our appointment.
no matter how bad the quarrel we had, you are always the first one to say sorry and seek for forgiveness.

thank you for putting me at first place, once again.


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a trip to JB and my total damage

1 Dec, there we are - just woke up from bed, getting ready to go to JB with your parents.
decided only the freaking day before.


Yes, as usual, being the stubborn one I know of you - you refused to make the trip with them.
not without me.
so here I am, making it happen for you and your parents. argh....
but i know you just needed my company... (muacks)

and guess what.
woah, it was a "food"ful trip. lots of food when i gained pounds and pounds and pounds.

but there you go again..."dear, do you want to buy this", "do you like this", "this is nice,"
every single shop that we go to, you'll ask if I needed to get something.

In the end, (with the power of your parents combined), I bought:
1 top - green with off shoulder and metal chain on one side of the shoulder - you said its refreshing and i do not need to buy clothes by occasion. when i find one that suits me, just buy
1 top - of hello kitty - you said its looks good
1 top - pic of a cute girl - you said its comfortable for me to wear it at home
2 mouses - hello kitties - cos you know i do like small mouses, especially the cutes ones
3 pair of earrings - cos i said i needed 1 pair simple one, you chose 3 pairs for me
2 pair of flats for work - cos you remembered that i always wears black and i needed a refreshing colour.
1 leopard print bag - cos i like it and ye,s i have the support of your parents... (''-")v - victory
1 future orange bag (you left a contact no. for the shop attendant to call you) cos it looked good on me during interview
1 headset - we shared, and because you know i like to listen to music during my "me-time"
550g of cuttle fish because i liked to eat.

and I did pedicure.
yes, cos you refused to do it.
and you only did it because i did it, and insisted that i need your company...

oh, did i even mentioned that you wanted to get me a phone casing, for my future phone.
if i am agreeable to all that you said, you would have also bought me a purse, a watch, a 2nd bag, popcorn - if i ever said yes, or anything.

haiz....
darling, do not spend so much on me....
I do not like to reject you too many times...
especially when I love you too much to do so.

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blood test results...

30 November, came the blood test results.
as your mum predicted, it was not as good as it should be.
so we gotta plan for the next visit to the specialist.
there you are being casual about everything.
and here i am, being uptight about making you quite smoking and eat healthily as well as changing your lifestyle.

i really want to walk many years with you by my side.
please do something to make my wish happen.

a dream comes true while we sleep.
a wish comes true when we believe, and we strive hard towards it.

Yes, i want you to hold my hands for many years to come.

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Monday, December 3, 2012

facebook post... about you...

yes, i copied some portion of my previous post onto my Facebook post and its fetched me 21 "Likes". its not the numbers that mattered to me...cos it was never meant for it.
till you knock off from work, you did not mention a single thing.
well, yes, you din even "Like" the post.
i was guessing you were too busy to notice my post of FB. So i left it there.

then you mentioned it after dinner while we were watching movie at home.
you asked - did i do all those things that you put on Facebook?
I replied - yes, of course you did.
you replied - good that you know it. (in chinese, with a smirk on your face)
i responded with a slap on his thigh, and laughed...

thats the kind of relationship and comfort level we share.
thank you for your humor and your refusal to be romantic in the romantic way.
a simple reply from me always make me laugh...erm, usually its not just me. others laugh at your comments also.
thats how witty you are.
and thats what i love about you.
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