week 39...
a pretty trying time...
started in week 35...

week 32 - 1.5kg
week 35 - 9cm, 2.6kg
week 37 - 10.3cm, 3.2-3.3kg
week 38 - 10.3cm, 3.5kg

"a little big?"
"a little heavy?"
counting down...
anxious
but not too impatient...
a little restless with the wait
yet...
a little reluctant for the 10 months process to end...
one thing for sure...
we are both happy to come this far...
not to mention, a little worried...

I am sure, its worth the 10 months...
its worth the wait...

we will not rush or pressurise
allowing nature to take its course..
as long as the little one is healthy and happy...
as long as everything is ok for the little one

am excited to see the arrival of her
to see her face, hands and legs...
to see the angel from our making...
crystalisation of our love..
from then...when we were nothing...
to now... when we are finally something...
a family...
a family of our own...

With Love
J.F

a morning of norm filled with good emotions... for you and her...

it's a brand new thursday - week 34 

thank you for taking the first steps all the time

buying the sketch book for baby rachelle, yesterday

I am sure we will have lots of fun working on it

She will love it...

and...

tired, but happy. 

i count my blessings...

to be able to sleep beside you nightly... 

massaging your palm....

dozing off with you hand in hand...

Love you

Wife. 

6 years 9 months... the last 2 months as F.J...

been 2 years since the last post...
a long time has passed when I finally found the need to pen down what i need to let go...

F and J are no longer the same anymore...
time passed
life changed
decisions made
feelings grew
relationships evolved
chemistry worked
thoughts developed
behaviours changed...

all these because we grew, and are still growing...
but i am so glad we grew as F.J.
its been 6 years and 9 months...
many things, if not all, have only gotten better, and not worse...
we found strength in each other...
this made us stronger as a "we"
I thank god for giving us a journey to go through, together...
arduous enough for us to suffer and learn...
sweet enough for us to smile and laugh
affectionate enough for us to hug and kiss
fun enough to giggle and poke fun at
loving enough to transit to another stage...

soon, we will welcome a new phase in life, together...
it will be challenging for me. for you. for us. for our families.
BUT, i am sure, it will be a challenge that's meant to toughen us, "glue" us together even more.

thank you
for coming into my life
for staying in my life
for being here with me right now, this very day...
for being who you are for me.. for us...
today, tomorrow and day after tomorrow.

I love you.

Others may say, with the change,
my love to you will lessen, and your love to me will too.
But i say,
for us, it will double and triple...
cos love grows infinitely.
its an amazing feeling that will grow without us knowing it.

I love you.
and I know for sure, you do too...

J to F.

life is. a performance, never a rehearsal.

2 nights in a row... upset and slept

u thought i am not frantic.
not pressurized.
not stressed.
i am not worried?

how can u not see from my perspective...

should not have made that decision... if i knew u would do this...

dinner is served with love... and a soup on your "Favourites" list

tuesday 4 december

i woke up togther with you and 6 plus am
thinking and decided to go marketing. and make some food for your dinner.
as a wife, seeing you work hard at work and i am not working currently.
the least i can do is make the house welcoming.
and fill the table with food that fills your stomach.

it took me half a day to prepare cos i was brewing.
luckily you managed to finish  all the food.
yes, the whole dinner manufactured by me for the first time.
yes, i burnt my hand couple times, leaving scars on the back of my palm, and forearm.
but these scars do not scare me away from cooking for you.
i will continue to manufacture and you will be my QC manager

thank you for cooking for me all the time.
let me pamper you once in a while, as a wife who wants you to relax at home, from work.

melon soup with ribs
pan-fried stingray
stir-fried baby spinach
stir-fried yong tau foo
with rice

yes.
its a blissful feeling to see you eat every mouthful
its a happy moment to see you finish all the food and not feel hungry for the rest of the night.

I will buck-up.

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we quarrelled...and we patched... cos you gave in first.... again

monday 3 dec 2012

we quarrelled.
it was raining. but you did not have an umbrella.
we arranged to meet for dinner at yishun.
but in the end, i delayed and you were pissed.
cos you were wet and drenched and i was late.

but yes, i was pissed too.
i was late because you informed me late
i was late because you needed some help and i sat the void deck alone for approx an hour and helped you fixed.
i was late because i do not want to disappoint you, neither do i want to disappoint my mother, my grandmother and my uncle.
i was late because i was trying to fulfil my role as a wife, a  daughter, granddaughter and a niece.

yes, i was pissed.
i blocked your call and slept in the mrt on my way home.
ignored your phone call. and msg.

when i reached home, you had no dinner.
i did not cook. and you decided not to eat much for dinner.
no delivery, no coffeeshop food.

in the end, you heat up the chicken pau and asked me to share with you.

i am sorry.
always being late for our appointment.
no matter how bad the quarrel we had, you are always the first one to say sorry and seek for forgiveness.

thank you for putting me at first place, once again.


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